First Post, Oh Boy!

Oh boy! First post ever on this blog! haha! I was just thinking tonight about the word perfect. We all strive towards perfect, or so we are told. We "keep up with the Jones" and according to our economy this is the way to go! We are told at a young age "Practice Make Perfect" and to "keep up the good work"! When is good ever enough?

I think it is time for a reality check. I am not perfect. I don't want to be! I want to be strong.. Not only Physically, but mentally and emotionally.

 I want to be nice, but not so nice that I get taken advantage of. I want to be pretty (doesn't every little girl?) and funny and friendly. I want to be a good mom. Not the kind of mom that I want to be, but the kind of mom that my kids deserve. I want to be a great wife. Now, I happen to think my husband got a pretty good deal, but I need to remember at the end of the day, as much as I love my kids, it's J's ugly mug I am going to be waking up to for the rest of my life.. or his.. He knows it too.

I want to be a good friend, and have good friends! (which I totally do!) I want to be smart.. not just book smart, but truly knowledgeable! When I don't know something, I want to dive in and learn all about it so I can share! I want to share. I am lucky. I can pay all of my bills every month (usually). So instead of hoarding, I want to share.. I want to be the person that people can come to with problems, be able to listen, to let them talk it out and then help them figure it out. I have a lot of wants..

Right now the goal I am striving towards is my health. I am sick of being sick. Sick of being tired, Sick of being me... I decided after Christmas I couldn't stand ME anymore. The stress, the weight, the extra child I am carrying around with me has to go. I mean, I guess the good thing is this one I'm not paying daycare on! However, because of it, I am now paying gym dues for. But I really like Zumba! And I am friendly with Turbo, I will get there. Its been 3 weeks, almost 4, since I started on my journey. So far I have lost 7 lbs.. I have gotten stronger, I have gotten happier, and I am feeling more like the old me! This is a journey to fitness, a journey to my life. I am realizing something as I type this.. I have made my decision, I am sticking to it, and I am happy to say, I am accountable for what I do! Thank gosh because I was starting to worry!